Survival

Can anyone tell me what's wrong and right between things?

Seems like im so lost touch of motion lately

Quote of the beginning have an ending

it's like getting more and more real this time round

5 more hours to go for operation

maybe i will go blind

maybe i will just stay normal

or maybe i will recover my eye sight again ...

so what if i have this thing around?

the only thing that i used to treasure the most

seems to get further and further away .

What will it feel to have memories lost and totally what i'hv in life

what's the most important thing in life

who am i ?

i really hope that even if i survive this time round

i hope i will lost all my memories even forget bout everything everyone

and restart again my life like when i first born out ...

what would it feel like .... hmmmm

The land of sorrows

KGS will be leaving homeground away for holiday or an long stay oversea ...
still in pending...
Good luck and all the best people ....

Glowsssssssssssssss

Enter of yours

I dont't change for nothing

Someone change me - Today...

This is what happening when you dont goes with the flow but going against it.

I will make sure revenge is done before i step into the bed i suppose to be.

YOU YES ITS YOU

Watch out and beware

I will make sure something is out there everyday to hunt you.

You force me to do this!

A bend metal will become back a 100% shape metal anymore

So just prepared for the nightmares .

Samsara

Got caught today for something by mum
Well Chipmunks @ jp and stress myself
homed and watch some video
is this the life i wished for ?
So what if everything is like this?
can i turn back time now ?
ima getting bad to worst each day
just because of you
what a tragical life i have .

The Furry X'mas

Delay my updated here
My X'mas Present exchanged gift @ JacQ BBQ X'mas Party.
BOYS TOY! Vibrator !

Unremorse

Ice bar for few days . -9 degree pub in jurong @ Snow City
Slack and pool with BBBBBBEEEEEEEERRRRRR
Drink drink and drinking
Smoke smoke and smoke
What a meaningless life
Just hope someone would help to fully brainwash my memo
so that i could able to restart the whole process again :)

What an boring theme now
Fuck you X'mas
Fuck the santa or the jesus thingy
Just hope there is nothing call religion here
just with this right into your face jackass _|_


OMFG where is my trip to KL or JB whatever
Damn damn damn damn .... )(*&^%$#@

Menudelm de levars

Walk in the boulevard of jurong

wander around like those spirits

plainly just no no no no

touch up with pussy over

whiskers moment of left and right

furry strain of the warmers

-kitty's

hang out til dawn and homed to bed

Reaper of the soul's

Horse rider


Sleeping buddha




Tecktonik




Bad dreams yesterday
was having super heavy headache
fever cough flu
doctor say i might be got H1N1..
who give a damn .
Live fast die young

im sleeping without aircon without fan
with long socks, shirts & pants
cover myself with a big blankets
and the sweat was force to damn

M'sia with parents
for Fried fish head
forget to bring camera over to snap piak
went to market @ msia to get daily product.

Back S'pore and to flower garden to get some soil
Mum is gardening some herb and vegetable.

i should stop smoking and drinking
health problems in me seem rising
i shall ground myself at home with movies.

Flocks of the feather's

Journey of the forwards ended.
I'm done with my attachment
and going for NS first.
2 years later than i will be back on track to finish up my attachment
Made up my mind finally.
Thinking for quite sometime
i think this will be a better choice for giving myself
sometime for some fresh start too.
Weichao birthday celebration at Martin last night
Nv really drink alot, cab home and play some games.
now is alrdy 11.30 am WTF....
think i shall catch some sleep before i wake up in the midnight
and nowhere to go.

Is all memories ...
be it good or bad.
is still the unforgotten memories

ELECTRO WAVESSSS

Soooooooooooooo Damn drunk on last partieeee
Mc for 2 days
4 bottles of vokda 1 bottle of martell
beer and tequlia
boat quay after REBEL
martell but im sleeping all the way
soooooo damn drunk.
Feeling so good but im still so sick... DAMN...
Home whole day going for a coffee break @ jurong west.
Kill some time to make myself awake.
cmon chicky...
bring me your best shot ...
Make me drunk and get the shit out of yourself.

Doing alot of wrong things recently.
mind seems so empty
i only believe i will get back what i suppose to have.

What About Now ?!

Party on wed
3 vodka beer and tequila shots
Drunk and some happening stunts of course.
fuck it srsly.
wonder whats happening next.
Drop and to boat quay for martell and beer.
I stopped and home after there.
Fucking drunk and Mc on thursday because im fucking drunk.
Hangover and met yb for lunch
dinner with ivan shumin
Supper with tim berdine yb zx ivan ph wisely john
Slack at jurong ,
tml will be a better day i hope...
Bored bored bored.

Feeling superB wooots

The Broken Vows

Off day today
and i mass send people in my contacts for parties tonight
Finally a day for me to relax.
Hang out with Leong @ Parklane ytd with his colleagues.
Pool and off they go
me and leong decide to chill out at some bar @ boat quay
went over and sheesha with Heineken ...
Slack til 5 am and cab home.

I'm arent a heartbreaker
not a rule breaker
but a vows breaker
DAMN

Historica brain mekan

Work work work...
working in the afternoon shift.
relax but this week is packed again.
Going off to work again and wed is off day !
Sentosa or Rebel or Pula Ubin ?
chillz out
don't wanna talk so much
mum thought i was on drug
Chef don't allow me to claim off for holiday
that means my BKK trip is cancel again CB.

Back to hell .
tonight shall be the night

Back in times of childhood

Screw thess few days
hardly get to sleep
3 days back only sleep 5 hours
after work club and morning back to work
Fucking tiring...
Finally came home early today and sleep.
sleep 3.30 am and watch Vampire dairies.
going off for the last day of APEC !
finally it's ending
And new planning start again

The momendium of the blanks

Ok, now im stressing myself
crystal in my room cracked
headache until no tomorrow
MC for work again
What the fucking problem now!
Chef call, his sad from his voice...
and i keep giving excuses that i cant work
NICE. what the fuck is wrong with me...

Should i just fucking quit?
no more interested staying in conrad anymore.
Thought the people are nice warmy
but i have been giving myself too much excuses to avoid them
seriously, i was hoping that i could die now and end my parents misery.

I'm very scared of whats the outcome.
and really scared, how would tml be?
A new day a fresh start ?
Fuck it seriously ...

Just let it be ...
don't care bout'
destiny will presume me
where i go, where i stay
i wrote it myself

Monday bluessssss

Kick off with Monday resting at home was real bad.
6 or more continuous days i gonna work
and i cant move myself out for parties.
Probably will be busy this whole week for APEC.
I thought i could enjoy food with anyone today .
But seems like no one is up for it.
In the past, i felt so easy because
wherever i eat my meals, i don't feel lonely.
Thought now there were more people to
share my table with ... but still not happy as before.
Yea , they bring me laughter,joys or the so called happy moments.
But i still think a table for 2 would just be nice for me to dine with.

So much of things to say or mumble about.
but who really give a damn .
This is life, you choose for your rights.
Do what you love to do .
Don't let what others thoughts to destroy the dreams.
It can be beautiful and free when we were in the line of single
But it can never be as sweet or pretty compare to a pair.

It pass more than a quarter of 1 year
I can actually feel what is happening.
My answer cant be very accurate
but i'm at least 60 % sure that
somethings between still going thru both of our heads.
Don't believe me and check out with old friends
set at some seaside, have a relax chat
Im pretty sure, it can help you best.
Stay clam and resolve problems with them.

Home left me with the most memories.
Be it with family or whoever
Home is where i build my love for.

House party @ PH house

Woke up and giant supermart for ingredients.
Over PH house for Party/steamboat...
Tomyam soup base for the night
balls all around
pork ball(local & Taiwan),Chicken ball,Mushroom ball,
Cuttlefish ball,Prawn ball,Beef ball,Fish ball...
Is like so much of balls we are eating for the steamboat LOL...
Songs,Cards,Drinks,Noise
Did you miss this party hahaha ....
Relax chilling until 6+ clear the place and home.
Bathe, out i am using this screwed lappy.

Giving it a thought,im still missing the lost haha
But fuck it, now i just wanna drop dead with alcohol daily.
It's so addictive... nice yet harmful haha.
For no reason why am i thinking so much ...
It's gone, and i doubt its coming back too.
So let me fuck around with my party peeps.

Should i defer my course?
i'm like super lost in somewhere
and no feel for work now.
Army and clear it off for 2 years and continue back for attachment
Hotel line's sucks big time
Super fuck up...
Any job that i can work 3 days per week and have 4 days rest ?

Drink driving is very bad.
Should i go take my car or motor license?
or should i just drive without it?
Traveling in own transport is much more faster and efficient.

I'm so sensitive yet immune to all the incoming spikes
couldn't be bothered to care bout what others are saying
seems like it happened 2 days back and ended yesterday
kinda a stile stun happened within seconds
thought it might seems nothing but it can accumulate for amounts

I don't regret this life that i chose for me
Thats why i'm still staying at home
Because the love there is always enough for me
althought the places and the faces are getting old.

Finally got my new passport.
i should start planning for overseas trip.

16-21 DEC 09 - Bangkok Trip with Jon C
Jan 2010 - Genting, KL - Kampong Kias
June 2010 - Taiwan - 10 days trip with PH crews
September 2010 before enlistment for army - Some nice island to chill out..

Eighteen's to Amelia

Rebel Last night
Saw a few familiar faces.
2 vodka and a premium belverde vodka
drank and drop yesterday ...
go to jurong west for food
no matter what i consume
i eject straight everything ...
home and sleep
again ... i'm mc for work today again ...

Cant blame people for being arrogant.
It's not worth to get life sentence under the law counts
I fight for who i think i should help
life isin't precious to me since &^%$#@! ago
Ever experience death before...
a fear that not all the human kinds can able to overcome
The revengeful temper is gushing up again ..
After i return to work place, my temper is being from bad to worst
what the hell is happening ..

Berserk with bloods
the freshness and ironic form
i seriously love watching people die in 1 shot ....

Falling an Epic in the TREND

People works, parties, whatever things that they gonna do.
Yet everything except parties for me lately.
Aight, i'm on MC for 4 days 1 day off and 2 days on duty.
Kinda feeling easy but fucked up too.
I'm having sore throat, sprained ankle, WASTED ...
bad bad bad...
When will be the time where i settle down and do things right?
I'm feeling so wrong suddenly, unfortunately i'm still
carry on with things when i know it's so wrong DAMN...
Be it right or wrong, i still enjoy my days...

Who gonna enlighten my thoughts in that early part
I'm so screwed lately.
If i have invincible powers, i would have explode this miserable world
and continue with afterlife, a new beginning.

Everything started off with the word called peace
but its like turning upside down with a rounder of 360 degree turn
i'm pretty sure resemble of yours appear somewhere
where i'hv seen you before ?
this question have been running thru my mind for 3-4 months time
seems like people that passerby
the recalling will eventually happened
what worst was i cant remember do i really seen them before somewhere.

Getting closure and its finally getting over.
best story is not bout how the story goes
but a none beginning nor ending story.

Life's fucked up
Lets Get Wasted Again ...