Flocks of the feather's

Journey of the forwards ended.
I'm done with my attachment
and going for NS first.
2 years later than i will be back on track to finish up my attachment
Made up my mind finally.
Thinking for quite sometime
i think this will be a better choice for giving myself
sometime for some fresh start too.
Weichao birthday celebration at Martin last night
Nv really drink alot, cab home and play some games.
now is alrdy 11.30 am WTF....
think i shall catch some sleep before i wake up in the midnight
and nowhere to go.

Is all memories ...
be it good or bad.
is still the unforgotten memories

ELECTRO WAVESSSS

Soooooooooooooo Damn drunk on last partieeee
Mc for 2 days
4 bottles of vokda 1 bottle of martell
beer and tequlia
boat quay after REBEL
martell but im sleeping all the way
soooooo damn drunk.
Feeling so good but im still so sick... DAMN...
Home whole day going for a coffee break @ jurong west.
Kill some time to make myself awake.
cmon chicky...
bring me your best shot ...
Make me drunk and get the shit out of yourself.

Doing alot of wrong things recently.
mind seems so empty
i only believe i will get back what i suppose to have.

What About Now ?!

Party on wed
3 vodka beer and tequila shots
Drunk and some happening stunts of course.
fuck it srsly.
wonder whats happening next.
Drop and to boat quay for martell and beer.
I stopped and home after there.
Fucking drunk and Mc on thursday because im fucking drunk.
Hangover and met yb for lunch
dinner with ivan shumin
Supper with tim berdine yb zx ivan ph wisely john
Slack at jurong ,
tml will be a better day i hope...
Bored bored bored.

Feeling superB wooots

The Broken Vows

Off day today
and i mass send people in my contacts for parties tonight
Finally a day for me to relax.
Hang out with Leong @ Parklane ytd with his colleagues.
Pool and off they go
me and leong decide to chill out at some bar @ boat quay
went over and sheesha with Heineken ...
Slack til 5 am and cab home.

I'm arent a heartbreaker
not a rule breaker
but a vows breaker
DAMN

Historica brain mekan

Work work work...
working in the afternoon shift.
relax but this week is packed again.
Going off to work again and wed is off day !
Sentosa or Rebel or Pula Ubin ?
chillz out
don't wanna talk so much
mum thought i was on drug
Chef don't allow me to claim off for holiday
that means my BKK trip is cancel again CB.

Back to hell .
tonight shall be the night

Back in times of childhood

Screw thess few days
hardly get to sleep
3 days back only sleep 5 hours
after work club and morning back to work
Fucking tiring...
Finally came home early today and sleep.
sleep 3.30 am and watch Vampire dairies.
going off for the last day of APEC !
finally it's ending
And new planning start again

The momendium of the blanks

Ok, now im stressing myself
crystal in my room cracked
headache until no tomorrow
MC for work again
What the fucking problem now!
Chef call, his sad from his voice...
and i keep giving excuses that i cant work
NICE. what the fuck is wrong with me...

Should i just fucking quit?
no more interested staying in conrad anymore.
Thought the people are nice warmy
but i have been giving myself too much excuses to avoid them
seriously, i was hoping that i could die now and end my parents misery.

I'm very scared of whats the outcome.
and really scared, how would tml be?
A new day a fresh start ?
Fuck it seriously ...

Just let it be ...
don't care bout'
destiny will presume me
where i go, where i stay
i wrote it myself

Monday bluessssss

Kick off with Monday resting at home was real bad.
6 or more continuous days i gonna work
and i cant move myself out for parties.
Probably will be busy this whole week for APEC.
I thought i could enjoy food with anyone today .
But seems like no one is up for it.
In the past, i felt so easy because
wherever i eat my meals, i don't feel lonely.
Thought now there were more people to
share my table with ... but still not happy as before.
Yea , they bring me laughter,joys or the so called happy moments.
But i still think a table for 2 would just be nice for me to dine with.

So much of things to say or mumble about.
but who really give a damn .
This is life, you choose for your rights.
Do what you love to do .
Don't let what others thoughts to destroy the dreams.
It can be beautiful and free when we were in the line of single
But it can never be as sweet or pretty compare to a pair.

It pass more than a quarter of 1 year
I can actually feel what is happening.
My answer cant be very accurate
but i'm at least 60 % sure that
somethings between still going thru both of our heads.
Don't believe me and check out with old friends
set at some seaside, have a relax chat
Im pretty sure, it can help you best.
Stay clam and resolve problems with them.

Home left me with the most memories.
Be it with family or whoever
Home is where i build my love for.

House party @ PH house

Woke up and giant supermart for ingredients.
Over PH house for Party/steamboat...
Tomyam soup base for the night
balls all around
pork ball(local & Taiwan),Chicken ball,Mushroom ball,
Cuttlefish ball,Prawn ball,Beef ball,Fish ball...
Is like so much of balls we are eating for the steamboat LOL...
Songs,Cards,Drinks,Noise
Did you miss this party hahaha ....
Relax chilling until 6+ clear the place and home.
Bathe, out i am using this screwed lappy.

Giving it a thought,im still missing the lost haha
But fuck it, now i just wanna drop dead with alcohol daily.
It's so addictive... nice yet harmful haha.
For no reason why am i thinking so much ...
It's gone, and i doubt its coming back too.
So let me fuck around with my party peeps.

Should i defer my course?
i'm like super lost in somewhere
and no feel for work now.
Army and clear it off for 2 years and continue back for attachment
Hotel line's sucks big time
Super fuck up...
Any job that i can work 3 days per week and have 4 days rest ?

Drink driving is very bad.
Should i go take my car or motor license?
or should i just drive without it?
Traveling in own transport is much more faster and efficient.

I'm so sensitive yet immune to all the incoming spikes
couldn't be bothered to care bout what others are saying
seems like it happened 2 days back and ended yesterday
kinda a stile stun happened within seconds
thought it might seems nothing but it can accumulate for amounts

I don't regret this life that i chose for me
Thats why i'm still staying at home
Because the love there is always enough for me
althought the places and the faces are getting old.

Finally got my new passport.
i should start planning for overseas trip.

16-21 DEC 09 - Bangkok Trip with Jon C
Jan 2010 - Genting, KL - Kampong Kias
June 2010 - Taiwan - 10 days trip with PH crews
September 2010 before enlistment for army - Some nice island to chill out..

Eighteen's to Amelia

Rebel Last night
Saw a few familiar faces.
2 vodka and a premium belverde vodka
drank and drop yesterday ...
go to jurong west for food
no matter what i consume
i eject straight everything ...
home and sleep
again ... i'm mc for work today again ...

Cant blame people for being arrogant.
It's not worth to get life sentence under the law counts
I fight for who i think i should help
life isin't precious to me since &^%$#@! ago
Ever experience death before...
a fear that not all the human kinds can able to overcome
The revengeful temper is gushing up again ..
After i return to work place, my temper is being from bad to worst
what the hell is happening ..

Berserk with bloods
the freshness and ironic form
i seriously love watching people die in 1 shot ....

Falling an Epic in the TREND

People works, parties, whatever things that they gonna do.
Yet everything except parties for me lately.
Aight, i'm on MC for 4 days 1 day off and 2 days on duty.
Kinda feeling easy but fucked up too.
I'm having sore throat, sprained ankle, WASTED ...
bad bad bad...
When will be the time where i settle down and do things right?
I'm feeling so wrong suddenly, unfortunately i'm still
carry on with things when i know it's so wrong DAMN...
Be it right or wrong, i still enjoy my days...

Who gonna enlighten my thoughts in that early part
I'm so screwed lately.
If i have invincible powers, i would have explode this miserable world
and continue with afterlife, a new beginning.

Everything started off with the word called peace
but its like turning upside down with a rounder of 360 degree turn
i'm pretty sure resemble of yours appear somewhere
where i'hv seen you before ?
this question have been running thru my mind for 3-4 months time
seems like people that passerby
the recalling will eventually happened
what worst was i cant remember do i really seen them before somewhere.

Getting closure and its finally getting over.
best story is not bout how the story goes
but a none beginning nor ending story.

Life's fucked up
Lets Get Wasted Again ...

Sleepless night's

Couldn't able to have a good time management for myself
Everything gonna get crashed in no time
I don't have the skills to save back up myself
Its falling down deeper and deeper.
The blue plan that got destroyed by self within my own
might not have another person that i would draw it for anymore.
feel wasn't right, i aren't gonna moved.
business business or i would say money money
please come to me, if you are feeling that no one gonna spent
you come to me, definitely i will help you out to spent in whatever way i can.

I hate myself
I hate this world
I hate every human kind

If things are meant to stay or be there
It will definitely be there.
No matter how much we are trying to run away from
it will still be there always.
Again... mindset going lost
what should i be doing ?
Eighteen and i'm suffering which i don't feel like it

I wish that i could sleep every now and than
Never gets up until i would love to.
In my coldy freezy room,
with whatever music i love to hear
This is what i would like to have currently.
Just another long break i would request
Who would grant me this?

Cooking is fun and i cant deny this
just that now not the time that i wanna work
Enjoying everyday getting wasted is much more fun now.
Will i stick to this career?
is still an mystery that i cant solve it.

The windy chimes
Its bell's papogino
Lguchin de trunomica
Sulvan tre el choFrdre

là être pas d' dieu exister

Sheesha for 2 days and MC for 3 days
Slack around haji lane for sheesha.
Korean BBQ there was nice and cheap i can say.
Anyway Ben turn 18th ...
Red Square Vodka for the night @ Bali lane.
Extremely Smooth for all the Vodka i have try.
Swing Jazz pub .Relax chilling place.
Back home and sleep
woke up and slack @ Jurong East
West coast RC for lan with ph,chao,ben,ivan,tim & berdine
Game finish and off to the usual coffee shop for supper.
Drag and cards til morning
and back there home sweet home...

I enjoy wasting my time
Slacking 18 hours a day and 6 hours of sleep
No work no MC
no study no need pay money
no gf no worries
Best solution = don't work + study = go parties



The business plan
Buy and sell
may be simple and easy but is so risky
How to read the stock market ?

LimXuan Eighteen's @ Rebel

Not in the group to istana for this big event .
stayed in conrad for inhouse work DAMN...
Mc today so i just need a very very good rest
Wasted everynight is the best ..


Missed the party on Halloween Damn...
tired shag so went over to sheesha with jon C,tim & berdine
chilled out and geylang for dimsum...
hungry and whack ...
home sweet home and sleep..